Friday, April 6, 2012

Good Friday

I have never understood the love of Christ more than today. John 3:16 has so much more meaning to me now when it says because God loved the world so much he gave his one and only son. There is NO greater love and sacrifice than that.

Me and Ryan just leaned over our Landon's bed, over all the unplugged tubes and cords, kissed his forehead and told him to be strong and we love him. The tears haven't stopped. I find comfort in knowing that we have a God who understands and sympathizes with us. He has felt this pain, He has watched his child be torn open and he went through that pain because of His extreme love for us. He gave His only son so that our only son could have life. Not just life on this world, but an eternal one. Our child has already known so much pain. He's gone through more medically in three days than some people face in a lifetime. We are terrified today. We are numb. We are holding our breath. Even in the midst of the fear and pain, I can't help but be amazed that today is the day the world celebrates and remembers the sacrifice of our savior. I always thought it was wrong to call today "good" friday. I doubt the disciples and the ones who loved and adored Jesus would have called it good while they were watching their hope be crucified. Praise God we know the outcome of the pain and agony. That is why we can call this day "good". I know God can already see the outcome of this day in Landon's life and I believe that even though it is painful and terrifying right now, God can say it is good because He knows the outcome and He knows that Landon is shining His glory.

Our prayer for Landon's life is that God be glorified through it and His love be shown to the world. This has already been accomplished in such amazing ways. We hate feeling helpless and not being able to be with our baby, but God is with Him. God is not helpless. He is more powerful than any surgeon. He knit Landon together and He can fix his tiny heart in an instant. Our hope is in the God who gave it all up and then resurrected hope again for all mankind.

That is the God we are praying to for our Landon. Thank you for joining us in fighting for our child. We truly are not helpless.


Anonymous said...

Praying SOOOOOO much!!!!! May God be glorified as you say, and may you and Ryan feel HIS presence in such a time. Many specific request going up for Landon. He is ADORABLE! So glad he made it into this world, so glad he has wonderful parents like you and Ryan!

Pat Hanson said...

We are praying. So many times throughout the day my thoughts go to Landon and you, Ryan and Nat, as well as your parents. I get teary when I read your blog. I don't have facebook so I get it all on blog only. We have a Mighty, Awesome, Loving, Faithful GOD that can do immeasurably more than we could ask or imagine as Eph.3:20. HE holds you all in the palm of HIS hand. Also, Isaiah 41:10 says "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your GOD. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." This one of the verse we teach the kids in Sparks. Continue in confidence in Him as Heb. 10:35 says. I will uphold you in prayer.I send my love. Pat Hanson